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Not a Day Trader

Over the years, I’ve worked at quite a few different jobs. I’ve been a grocery bagger, a lawn worker, a clerk/typist and a soldier. I’ve sold fish wholesale and worked the front desk at several hotels. I’ve spent time as children’s program director at a Christian camp and served behind the deli counter at a supermarket chain. I’ve been employed as a chauffeur and a bell-boy and purchasing agent. I was very possibly the lowest-paid political appointee in all of Washington, D.C., for one eight-month stint. More than 16 years of my life, I’ve been a programmer of one sort or another.

Some of these jobs didn’t really appeal to me as a career. For example, working behind the deli counter was interesting only for the first five or six weeks — there are only so many different kinds of meats and cheeses (and I tried ‘em all!). I wasn’t fast enough to make bagging groceries very remunerative. Selling fish, as it turns out, made me very popular with cats, but limited my social opportunities. And I didn’t like the hours of being a soldier.

Trust in my pistol?
At least I never had to ride a horse, for any of my jobs.

Sometimes I look back at my life and I wonder, “what would it have been like if I had become a … dentist?” Well, OK, I don’t spend much time wondering about that, but there were certainly other possibilities. With a little more work, I might have retained my ROTC scholarship and become an Army officer, like my brother and my Dad. Or I might have followed the call of missions and taken that job as a network administrator for a missions agency in the Ivory Coast. I’m not griping, but why have I chosen to spend all this time as a programmer? Is it enough that I’m pretty good at it?

Joshua joins the Sharpshooters
Joshua nearly was drafted into the Sharpshooters, on the spot.

One thing I’m glad I didn’t choose to be: a day-trader. I’ve always had a certain anti-genius when it comes to stock market investing. As the years have passed, I’ve seen my miniscule 401(k) investments grow into, er, slightly less miniscule 401(k) investments. When people talk about an average 8% return, I laugh uproariously — I’m lucky to see 3%. Just when a fund is about to show a profit, I am gripped with an uncontrollable urge to sell, and to buy a fund that is about to tank.

Of course, the last three weeks have not been kind to those with any kind of wealth tied up in our financial system. As in the days of the dot-com bubble burst, private investors are being sheared (perhaps even fleeced) at an alarming rate. I think my annualized rate of return is somewhere around -16%.

I read on the news that billionaire T. Boone Pickens has lost around $300 million so far this year, amounting to about 10% of his net worth, and somehow, that made me feel better. When wealthy men with a lifetime of investment experience and significant holdings in the energy sector can’t show a profit, I guess I don’t need to feel so bad about my own dire investment strategies.

But it raises an important question: where does my security come from? Do I trust in my stored up wealth? Do I take comfort in the appreciation of my home or other real estate? Do I place my confidence in my ability to work and generate income?

Floating a needle
… or do I trust in the viscosity of water?

For a follower of Christ, the answer is simple (even if it sounds a little trite): my trust is in the Lord. But let’s look at that a little more closely. Can I trust God to ensure that I’ll continually improve my quality of life, enjoying my retirement in comfort and ease? I don’t think so. While there are some general remarks in the scriptures about righteousness and diligence and their tendency to produce lasting wealth, the only real guarantees I can think of at the moment, speak more to persecution than they do to retirement. It may be the American Dream to acquire wealth and enjoy a better standard of living than one’s parents, but I think that Christians need to take a hard look at that dream before incorporating it into their spiritual life. I suspect that the American Dream is an idol that prevents many from giving their full devotion to God.

If God chooses to bless me with wealth that I can use to bless others and pass on to my children, so much the better. But placing my hope in a future of comfort and ease here on earth seems foolhardy. God promises me an eternal rest; but while still on this planet, all bets are off.

Kathy works on her Bible Study
Kathy in the sun with her Bible and her faithful Starbucks mug — a quintessential Kathy moment.

Since I first wrote this blog, the promised ‘bailout plan’ has failed in the House of Representatives, and the Dow Jones Industrial average has dropped more than 770 points (the largest ever in a single day, to include 9/11/2001). In one day, somewhere around 7% of the value of the stock markets has been erased, if only on paper. With any kind of retirement becoming less of an option, this seems like a really bad time to trust in wealth.

Partisan skirmishing
I don’t pretend to know if the bailout is a good idea or bad, but it has been pretty funny (yet sad) to watch the partisan skirmishing.

What do you think? Do hard economic times cause people to turn to God? Is this an opportunity for the church to reach out to hurting unbelievers? Is this a chance for people to turn away from the idols of wealth and ease?

Prayer before battle
At the very least, I hope it causes us to pray.

Tim

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Fireproof

Kathy and I had a hot date tonight. When we got home, she turned to me with that look in her eye. You know the look I’m talking about.

“Well sweetie,” she breathed, huskily, “… who’s paying for that?”

And people say there’s no romance in budgeting.

We went to see Fireproof at our local cinema — what a great movie! This film, created by the same church in Georgia who brought us Facing the Giants and Flywheel, was not in any way a disappointment.

Fireproof
What a great movie!

Yes, some of the dialogue was a bit stilted, and some parts of the movie were pretty predictable, but it was money well spent. We’ll definitely buy the DVD as soon as it is available. The plot moved along, and the characters were believable and likeable. I’m not going to tell you much more about it, if you haven’t seen it, because I don’t want to spoil it for you.

If you are a follower of Jesus Christ, I would encourage you to go see this movie. Don’t go to see it because you need to ‘send Hollywood a message’ about the need for decent movies for decent people (although that would be nice). Rather, you should go to see it because it will encourage you in your faith and in your marriage (if you have been blessed in that way) and it is good entertainment to boot.

Fireproof my marriage
It is certainly a chick flick, but I mean that in a good way.

If you’re not a believer in Jesus, but you’d like to know more about real faith for real people, go see this movie. It presents God’s love for you clearly, in a not-too-preachy way that is understandable and accessible.

Definitely a hot date. :)

Tim

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Blog Number Alert

Today one of my helpful students informed me I have a lot of blogging to do by the end of 2008 in order to remain competitive with 2007′s blog posts.

You know things are slow in school when your kids spend time reading bloggy stats.

“Really, what do you mean?” I inquired sleepily over my cup of coffee, it was a slow moment for the teacher as well.

“Hmmm, your blogging is down for 2008,” Joshua said with a disapproving look, “There’s still a chance you can redeem the year but it’s not going to be easy. Let me look at the stats. Okay, you have about 100 posts to write and 97 days in which to write them.”

At first I was inspired and challenged. My back straightened and my mind immediately turned to the dozens of creative bloggy ideas I’ve been neglecting.

“Wow, that would be a fun,” I grinned, “we’ve written a post a day before. It’s not that hard. Sure things are a bit busier this year with all this homeschooling we’re doing do all the children really need to be educated?, but we could probably pull it off.

Just as I was turning to the computer to begin writing, my eye caught sight of Joshua’s face.

two hombres

Joshua and Timothy aren’t sure. “It’s not going to happen, Mrs. E.”

“Um, Mom, I might have made a slight error in my calculations. It looks like you need 200 blog posts for 2008, not 100.”

“What?? Does that mean I’d be writing TWO posts a day?” I always was good at math.

“Yeah, plus a couple of extra to hit the 400′s.”

That’s an awful lot of writing, editing, cutting, pasting, and Photoshopping. I haven’t even taken more than 3 pictures in the last week. I’m rusty!

On the other hand, there’s nothing quite like a deadline and a challenge to motivate me. I think part of the reason I continued with the Project 365 last year (with stubborn tenacity) was the fact that one of Tim’s friends told him I would probably grow tired of it after a few weeks.

Ha! I showed him.

There you go, I dare you to tell me we couldn’t publish 200 more blog posts in 2008! In fact, we might just post 201, that would really set some records.

What do you think? Is it worth it? A fun idea or stupid waste of time? If the budgeting and general weight loss plans don’t pan out, at least we could point to the blog stats with pride.

Depending on your definition of pride.

Kathy

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Summer of the Heart

This time of year is always sort of bittersweet for me. August and September are the most beautiful months in our part of the world, and there is still some time before Summer is over. Our Fall schedule of home-schooling, Co-op, Physical Education at the YMCA, and various church activities doesn’t usually start until the middle of September, and so we have a few weeks left to cherish.

But already the seasons are turning, and the days are shorter. It is now dark at 9 pm, and today roughly marks the 1/3 point from the summer to the winter solstice. “Where did Summer go?” I ask myself plaintively.

let's go to the river

A visit to the water is always a treat.

I feverishly try to recount the sunny days in my head. True, we’ve had some hot weather, and quite a bit of sunshine, but there’s been a fair bit of rain mixed in, too. This week we’ve had cool temperatures, clouds and rain; it feels like Fall.

It is hard not to panic. “Wait!” Kathy and I cry. “We didn’t get our fair share of golden warmth! Kathy can’t face another gloomy Seattle winter without storing up some heat!” Indeed, most of my tomatoes haven’t even ripened, a sure barometer of an insufficiently-warm summer (or possibly a deficient gardener).

I take a deep breath, and reflect.

don't worry daddy

Silly Daddy, it’s okay.

One of the things I like best about being adopted into God’s family and a follower of Christ is that I don’t have to worry about being ‘out of time’. To the extent that I submit myself to the will of Jesus, I am never too late and never too early, I never miss an opportunity and I can always trust that everything will be done in its proper time. I am, after all, immortal, thanks to the gift of eternal life through faith in God’s Son.

let me grab a rock

What boy doesn’t love finding (and throwing) the perfect rock?

Of course, I don’t always subordinate myself to the will of my God, which is another problem altogether.

Still, I have a master who knows when the smallest sparrow falls, and He loves me and cares about every detail of my life. If He allows this Summer to pass quickly, then I can exercise my faith and believe that He has His purpose, and I can submit cheerfully to it, without feeling cheated or cut short.

New Jerusalem
Not the actual New Jerusalem.

I hug to my heart the promise of golden summers of Eternity, as the light from the Throne blazes out across the river, illuminating the twelve Trees of Life and their fruit, always in season:

Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations. No longer will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in the city, and his servants will serve him. They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever. The angel said to me, “These words are trustworthy and true. The Lord, the God of the spirits of the prophets, sent his angel to show his servants the things that must soon take place. — Revelation 22:1-6

Tim

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Enjoying the Time

It’s hard to be thoughtful and insightful when I’m blogging late at night.

butterfly village

I was awake, hours ago, at the science center.

rachel's my butterfly

Oh the other hand, the dishes are washed, the laundry is drying, and tomorrow’s lunch is made. That’s worth a pat on the back or at least a nap in the comfy chair.

I’m afraid the children are tired of living in photographic bloggy land. They no longer find my endless snap shot sessions amusing. What can I do to fix this? The younger two still pose cheerfully but the older kids are just plain not interested.

i'm grumpy!

Sometimes the kids will help by posing with grumpy faces.

Do you force your kids to pose? Sit nicely and smile? Can they run and hide?

I’m worried that I might be missing some special pictures because the family has got photo-fatigue.

a round of Bang

If I beg and plead (and bribe) the kids usually let me snap their pictures, but it costs me big!

Any thoughts?
Kathy

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